97th day before graduation!

97th day before graduation!

yeah,yeah,yeah!i know,i’m about to set foot on the next level of my life where new challenges awaits me..others maybe excited and all but, as for me, well i am or shud i say i was excited before. 97 days to do til that day comes and i have to face the reality outside this university, where, for four dreadful years, i have intrusted myself to gain knowledge,skills and attitude that i needed to venture on a more mature and responsible role in this society..my goodness! i don’t feel like moving on.. i wanted to stay longer..hahaha..if only i could!how i wish..ahahaha..

but i don’t want to be left behind..not like a few other people i knw..(peace)just like a friend of mine told me lastnyt, “don’t you wanna join your friends and batchmates when you graduate?would you like to see them having their diplomas while you, yourself jst standing there!watching?how do you think that feels?hmmm?”..and i knw he was rigth..i don’t know if its about the future that awaits or it is jst me..denial of the fact that not too soon ill be facing a more mature role, not having to depend on both parents anymore..or is it the expectations of others, the society and my co-graduates, not wanting to fail them, that put pressure on..(sigh*)

but then i realize that there are two things that prevent us from achieving our dreams: 1)believing them to be impossible or 2)seeing those dreams made possible by sum sudden turn of the wheel of fortune, when u least expect it. and when this day comes, all our fears suddenly surface: just for example, the fear of setting off along a road heading who knows where(the exact spot where i am ryt now), the fear of a life full of challenges(although im not afraid of more challenges to come), the fear of losing forever everything that is familiar(stagnation, i don’t really like that). we, human as we are, want to change everything and, at the same time, want it all to remain the same.tsktsktsk

Life's Hardships and Struggles

Ang buhay ay puno ng paghihirap, alam ko. Sa simula pa lamang sa araw na ako ay ipinanganak noong ika-27 ng Mayo taong 1988, alam kong naranasan ko ng maghirap sa unang pagkakataon sa aking pagkabuhay. Ito ay dahil sa isang panibagong mundo na aking nahagilap na talaga nga namang napakalaki ng kaibahan sa noong ako ay nasa sinapuponan pa lamang ng aking ina. Sa tulong ng mga taong nakapaligid sa akin lalo na ang aking mga magulang na nagmulat sa akin sa mundong ito, ang mga paghihirap at takot ay aking nalampasan. At sa tulong at pagpapahintulot na rin ng Poong may Kapal. Matagal ko nang tinatahak ang landas na ito at alam kong malayo pa talaga ang daan na kailangan kong tahakin. Sa aking pagtahak nito, natuto ako sa takbo at daloy ng buhay at mundo. Ang buhay ay hindi pala palaging madalian. Kung ang iyong nais ay karangyaan, kasiyahan at walang humpay na tagumpay, bago mo man ito maabot eh ang dami mo pa palang pagsubok na dapat na malampasan, at sakit na dapat mong maranasan. Dapat mong kalimutan ang iyong mga takot at kahinaan sa mga panahong kailangan mo nangmamili sa kung anong alam mo na tama at kung alin o ano ang makakapagpasaya sayo. Sa pagtahak ko sa landas na ito alam kong marami pang darating na mas malalaki at mas nakakatakot na mga pagsubok at paghihirap. Pero kahit papaano ay may kasangga na ako, ang mga maling naging aral na sa akin na siyang nagpapalakas at nagbibigay sa akin ng kaalaman sa kung ano na ang dapat kong gawin sa susunod, upang ang mga pagkatalo ay hindi na mauulit pang muli. Ang buhay ay puno nga naman talaga ng mga pagsubok, alam ko. Pero kailangan kong tanggapin ang mga hamon ng KAHAPON upang makayanan ko ang hampas ng NGAYON at matuwid ko ang sarili kong BUKAS. Ang mga karanasan konh iyon ay isang napakalaking tulong para sa akin. Kailangan kong tumayo ng mag-isa para sa aking sarili dahil alam kong wala akong ibang masasandalan kung hindi ang akin na ring sarili. May takot ako noon na baka hindi ko makaya dahil alam kong mahina ako pero may nakapagsabi sa akin na walang sino man ang mahina kong ang Poong may kapal na mismo ang pinagkukunan mo ng lakas . Ngayon, alam kong palagi lang siyang nandito sa akin, ginagabayan, pinuprotektahan at tinutulongan sa ano mang bagay na aking kailangan. At ang lahat ng ito at kung saan man ako ngayon, o bukas, ay ipinapasalamat ko sa kanya. Grasya niya ito na nakarating ako ngayon sa kinaruruonan ko. hav a happy reading

In awe of YOU ;)

Oh, how great is He our Lord GOD Almighty, who leadeth me to peace and purity. Despite my unworthiness and all, still He is faithful in His promises of undeserved grace, love, mercy, and forgiveness and now I know I AM FREE. Free from the bondage of any sin you could ever imagine that i have done before or for the future to come and I just can’t help it but be AWED of HIS mighty power that has over come me.

Oh, I will continue to be and forever will be thirsty and hungry of HIS Living Word. Yes, I will shout out to the world that HE is my GOD and I LOVE HIM more than anything in this world, and that I am dying to meet Him so I could bow down on His feet and kiss them. Yes, I will forever shout out to the world HIS glory and how He reigns victoriously at the end of all this suffering and uncertainty. Yes indeed, the world is full of uncertainties that makes human beings fear the future because they know nothing about God’s Living Word and God’s mighty power. But I thank the Lord for I am very much assured of His promises and of His plans for me. Not just me but also for all His children who believes and have faith in Him. Yes, I will forever thank my Father for this amazing journey of my life, I am once dead of the world and now I am ALIVE IN CHRIST.

Isn’t it amazing how He could change one dead individual and just to make it live again giving it and eternal life!? Amazing right? And Yes, don’t get me wrong about that sentence, God alone gives us eternal life once you are born again in His son, Jesus Christ. And in His heavens is a wondrous place to live in, more beautiful than the place you would consider a paradise here on earth.

My journey continues and I am letting Saviour, Jesus Christ, to lead my way. As of now, I am very much excited for my first day again in school..weeeeeeee.. And it’s not just any ordinary school but it is a Bible School. I humble thank my Father for revealing to me, at long last, His plans for me because I am dying to be of His service. I am dying to make my self available for Him and to be able to be used by Him. And I am dying to be a fisher and a laborer for HIM to the world. By HIS will, should it be done. Amen.
Im praying that while you were reading this, may the Holy Spirit is with you and guiding you. Thank you.